I’m really sorry you had such difficult childhood and bad mother. Kids are the worst and can be so cruel for no reason, it’s awful.

Also, I’m sorry my questions must have touch very sensitive memories, thank you for being open and I hope it wasn’t too painful. Thank you for broadening my understanding and perspective on the human condition. I hope you were able to deal with your trauma with a professional and that it’s not too much of a burden on you life.

I’m also sorry for the lack of clarity in my sentences. What I wanted to say is that everyone is unique/weird so really no one is weird. You should be able to like what you want without any guilt as long as it’s not hurting anyone else (except if they want to be hurt of course 😈).

I really hope you are in a sane relationship with your boyfriend and not just dependent on it. I hope he treats you with respect and genuine love as you absolutely deserve it. You are worth it, no doubt in my mind. I wish you and your boyfriend the best. I wish I could give you a big hug right now 🫂 (here’s a coupon for a free hug from your boyfriend in my place 💝)