American Christianity is a truly baffling thing. I had a pretty similar upbringing to you, and after recognizing the hypocrisy I just couldn’t bring myself to engage. Like, there’s no way to make someone see what they refused to acknowledge, so why bother? Matt Christman likes to say protestantism has replaced a socially constructed understanding of God with the crass glorifying/worshiping of a person’s own ego (ie a personal relationship with God). And… as much as that smacks of an “edgy middle-school atheist rant”… yeah, that unfortunately seems to be the most accurate description.