On Tuesday I had a panic attack when I got in to work at 9am. It didn’t last long, only about 15-20 minutes, but I still don’t feel quite right even now. That’s usually the case with my panic attacks, it takes a while for me to reset afterwards. Sometimes weeks.
Right now I have this tense feeling in my head, which causes my jaw to tighten up and get an impulsive twitch. Usually seems to happen when I’m feeling anxiety. I have an urge to chew on something soft.
I feel terrible because I didn’t buy even a card for my wife’s birthday. I just took her to her mother’s house. This was two weeks ago. I am still baffled why I didn’t buy flowers or something. My wife isn’t demanding at all.
Bored. I’m out on my anniversary tradition, which is going apple picking… Except my other half immediately rolled out the picnic blanket and has been sleeping on me for the past hour.
It’s sad to think of how the dynamics have changed over the past 10 years between us. It’s almost like the brain hamster wheels have all fallen apart and what’s left are only the most basic of human functions. It’s days like today I wish my country had any kind of worthwhile mental health care.
Much better than the pervious couple weeks. It’s refreshing! Depression sucks.
Good luck…
Thanks!
Excited to go buy a bunch of native plants for the local park :)
That’s awesome
It’s the fifth cold I got in a row I feel angry
That’s annoying… just the thought of catching a cold is annoying to me : headaches, constant sneezing, heat and such things … I hope you get better soon
i just want to fucking die die die die die die die die die die die FUCKING DIE ALREADYYYYHSHSUDJEJJSJDKF
May I ask why ?
I failed college, which lead to me losing my job. I also lost my car. To top it all off, my girlfriend of 3 years left me while we were 10,000km away from home. Every single thing reminds me of her. I haven’t had the strength to shower in a week. I wish I had a car so i can drive into a concrete block at 200km/h and obliterate my worthless body. I love her so much.
It does get better, and one day you’ll look back and be glad that it turned out the way it did, just keep going ❤️
I currently feel like my nervous system is vibrating having just got out of the gym after preworkout
Good luck
Sad, sometimes, and a little lonely most of the time. Been through a rough breakup this year. But getting better all the time! Hope you’re well!
Last night I had a mild panic attack for no reason. I think it might have been induced by a mixture of beer and sugar, a combination I don’t do very often.
I’ve just come out of a long term relationship with someone I thought I would have kids with. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, but somehow that wasn’t enough for me and I wanted out. I still have no idea if I did the right thing, but at least we left as friends who care deeply for each other. The separation was slow and excrutiating but I think we’re both on the road to healing.
I used to think that if two people love each other, that was enough, but I’ve come to realize than I wanted more than just love, I wanted to feel less lonely in my head, and a severe language barrier was preventing that from happening. With time, we might have gotten there, but with time, I also may have grown to resent her, and so that’s why I ended it. I banked on my pessimism instead of my optimism.
Time heals all, and I guess we’ve just got to tread water until that time comes. Sorry for the word vomit above, your post apparently struck a chord with me
Ever thought about adopting a pet ? it might be good for such cases … good luck
Currently very silly, im wearing a cute skirt :3
It’s been a really long time since I bought / wore a skirt or a dress or even makeup… shame on me really
exhausted. physically and mentally. even if i manage to disconnect its never for long enough to recouperate fully
I hope you get better soon
thx. same to you
Putting my kitty down this afternoon. Almost made it to 20. Very sad. On Xanax though.
Edit: thank you everyone. He’s gone now. We had an at-home service put him down. He went incredibly peacefully, purring loudly as the first injection went in.
We’re about to drive him to his brother’s grave (who died five years ago) and bury him there so they can forever snuggle.
It sounds like you gave your kitty a long, love-filled life. I’m sorry they can’t be with you longer.
So sorry for your loss 😞
Thanks for giving your kitty as good a life as you could. Don’t let the end cloud your vision from the good times.
If/when you’re ready, there are more lost souls to save out there. I wish I could have cats myself, but I am not stable enough to house them. Maybe some day I will foster, but even that is probably to much for me to handle.
Thank you for your kind words. He lived an incredible life. Working is going to be a lot more lonely without him constantly bothering me to snuggle with me all day.
When his brother died five years ago, he was so lonely… so we adopted two baby kittens so he could be their mum. He took to them immediately, cuddling and playing and loving them. I think that might have extended his life. They’re a little confused right now with him not moving, but we didn’t let him see his brother after he died, which I think was a mistake.
About to go drive to his brother’s grave to bury him with his brother so they can snuggle eternally.
That’s so sad…
So excited and so overwhelmed.
We’re moving from the US to Denmark soon. We just had a hurricane destroy our city. We are fine, thankfully, but our city is in bad shape. I also just had a decently big surgery a few weeks ago and my doctor’s office is gone, so in the midst of all this I have to find a doctor. Just coincidental timing on all of it.
But it’s net positive. I look forward to the future more than I dread the bad stuff.
Is it that bad? I had thought the buildings would have mostly survived given the city was built to withstand them and that it was just too dangerous for people
How do you recover from that? Does insurance cover it?
I’m in Asheville NC not Tampa. We’re not built for the hurricane we got.
Insurance covers very little. Not the fact that the city won’t have water for months, nor access to you property, nor flooding for the majority of people, and many many businesses are gone
Every day I go to all my part time jobs, and they take so much from me that I cannot recover what I’ve lost before the beginning of my next day of shifts.
Every day, I lose more and more of me. Until one day, there will be nothing left and I will quit one or all of my jobs and be unable to afford housing, and become homeless (again).
Do you live in America ? I’ve heard stories like this from Americans … I hope it goes well with you anyway
Not all jobs are created equal. Find a new one(s).
Like my life has been stolen from me. I am left with nothing.
Isn’t having cancer alone bad enough?
