Before someone questions me, this is a phenomenon that has been documented. https://www.sydney.edu.au/news-opinion/news/2022/05/24/during-general-anaesthesia-1-in-10-people-may-be-conscious-follo.html
https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20190313-what-happens-when-anaesthesia-fails
Forgive me if this is the wrong place to post; c/mutualaid feels like it would draw attention away from people with more urgent issues, and c/mentalhealth is very inactive and rarely anyone ever sees it.
you might communicate to your surgeon that you’d like to discuss this with your anesthesiologist, and come to an agreement that they make doubly sure that you don’t respond to commands before they administer the drug that paralyzes you, to reduce the chance that this happens. unfortunately, there’s no good way to know whether you have any complications with anaesthetic until you’ve gone under.