Hey,

I’m not an real trans, I consider me self non binary. I think its easier for me.

Today I got my first sockets, and to wear them, I did my first hair removal. 🥰🥰 (age : 30 passed )

What an pain girls, how you do that regularly. How bear that ??!! Give me tips pls !

I don’t wanna die by doing it, but what an pain !!!
I did fights in my life, I got shocked, but wtf this… 🤬 And on the foot, for a little part, I’ve cheated, used an razor and cut me self 🤤

I just did half the job, I will do the thighs later, or no ! 🥺😶‍🌫️

I’m so proud of that, don’t know why. I pretty like the result.

Ty to read me

          • Ada@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
            4·
            1 year ago

            Yeah, but they’re doing that thing where when we’re in the closet, or not transitioning, we downplay our own identity and needs, and call ourselves fake.

            I’m just making it clear that she’s very much not fake, she’s as real as any of us, whatever her life looks like :)

            • TGhost[any]@lemmy.fmhy.netOP
              1·
              1 year ago

              You touch something,
              I feel fake by “doing the girl” at home.
              But there is no disturb to me, to appear as an man, all my life I’ve been an man for others.
              I don’t care of my gender finally, that’s not define me self I think.

              That’s why i define me self as non-binary.

              To be honest, I think I don’t have the correct vocabulary. I understand what you are all saying. To precise, for me an trans person is effectively someone who affirm the gender with outfits or make up, at the world. In this case an man to woman.
              I’m really far from that.

              But this hair removal I don’t know how to explain, but today at work its like I feel different (even the sensation of the legs within pants have changed).

              • Ada@lemmy.blahaj.zone
                4·
                1 year ago

                You can take your time to find the vocabulary. Finding yourself is a journey, not a destination :)

                But wherever you end up, you’re just as real as the rest of us. Don’t compare yourself to others and think they’re real and you’re not.

                • TGhost@lemmy.ml
                  2·
                  1 year ago

                  Its hard to not compare but thats really true. I like the journey instead the destination.

                  Thanks again, really

      • TGhost[any]@lemmy.fmhy.netOP
        1·
        1 year ago

        Yeah that’s it.

        I’m even not transitioning at all. In my life, my apparences tell that I’m a man.

        I don’t have the vocabulary yet.

        I did this account for this purpose too, I need to use it more ^^

    • TGhost[any]@lemmy.fmhy.netOP
      1·
      1 year ago

      Don’t worry :) I just meant I’m not transitioning or anything like that.
      I’m under an umbrella yeah I guess. That’s why I’m here too ^^

      Its maybe bad to think like that and sorry. But That’s just I’m not an man and not an women. So how can I do an transition and be “trans” if I don’t know what is my gender finnaly.

      And English isn’t my primary language. Don’t help too concerning using the good vocabulary

        • TGhost@lemmy.ml
          1·
          1 year ago

          ty for your message,
          Its helping me a lot i guess, by reading it, i felt strange.

          I’m an basic thing,
          what im doing, is clearly an change.
          If you read others comments u will see (you right that depend a lot of things, my context isnt the same as yours so i guess) my vision’s prism. Totally different from yours.

          Ty really,

          For your last line,
          Yeah clearly, here (lemmy) is the only place where i express my self about it, no one in my family or friends knows all of this. express it, is really helping to accept what am I, i feel it.
          At one moment express me self to me self, does not keep working.