It’s me. For all the tragic things going on in the world, there’s still plenty to wonder at and enjoy

I probably look like someone with scrooge mc duck dopamine, but I actually do a copious amount of gigwork (hobbies) to scrape together just enough dopamine to not spiral into a bottomless depression from which I will never escape.

You don’t know that those people aren’t super depressed at home when they’re alone. Maybe they’re only stoked every time you see them because they feel good getting out of the house and being around people.

Yeah, unfortunately many I’ve met also were bipolar. But yeah the ones who aren’t I definitely envy.

I’m always happy, I just can’t focus for shit 🤣

It’s like i’m too dissociated to realize i’m sad about things

I don’t have the energy to interact with those kinds. We can be friends if the depression level is close to mine.

I knew a few in my life, and I tried to keep them as near as possible. They’ve been my favourite people by far.

Also, not sure if its coincidence or if theres something to it, they’ve all appeared to be beautifully daft. Like they seem stupid.

Setup systems that bring you joy you know automated tiny wins

You guys get dopamine? All I get is adrenaline and cortisol

Find enough cat hair and you can make another kitten. Then feed it the crumbs.

Ever see one of them get angry?

I’ve seen angry people my whole life.

But when a calm person gets mad. I notice.

“Fake it till you make it” is my motto.

And people mirror each other, so mood is contagious.