This is why I’ll never truly be able to quit nicotine. Apparently I don’t meet the threshold for adhd medication despite regular debilitating functional freeze, so nicotine and the dopamine it gives me is only reason I’m a functioning adult.
Gosh, when I smoked, I punctuated my life with cigarettes. Get dressed, smoke. Coffee, smoke. Do the pots, smoke. Start laundry, smoke. Finish laundry, smoke. Vacuum, smoke. Shave, smoke…
I stopped smoking a decade ago, but I’ve recently got into rum in a properly way. Which I think might be worse.
I was able to switch to vaping, but there is a hard lower limit to the amount of nicotine I have to add. Everytime I reduce below 6mg/ml freebase my life starts to unravel and I can’t put the vape away either. It’s not classical withdrawal - I know how that feels all too well from the time I tried to get rid of cigarettes without the vape, and withdrawal itself is a done deal after a few days.
I might actually try a higher amount again, even the 6mg are pushing it on some days.
This is why I’ll never truly be able to quit nicotine. Apparently I don’t meet the threshold for adhd medication despite regular debilitating functional freeze, so nicotine and the dopamine it gives me is only reason I’m a functioning adult.
Gosh, when I smoked, I punctuated my life with cigarettes. Get dressed, smoke. Coffee, smoke. Do the pots, smoke. Start laundry, smoke. Finish laundry, smoke. Vacuum, smoke. Shave, smoke…
I stopped smoking a decade ago, but I’ve recently got into rum in a properly way. Which I think might be worse.
I was able to switch to vaping, but there is a hard lower limit to the amount of nicotine I have to add. Everytime I reduce below 6mg/ml freebase my life starts to unravel and I can’t put the vape away either. It’s not classical withdrawal - I know how that feels all too well from the time I tried to get rid of cigarettes without the vape, and withdrawal itself is a done deal after a few days.
I might actually try a higher amount again, even the 6mg are pushing it on some days.
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