Basically the takeaway was:
“Fix your sleep schedule”
“Just go outside more”
“Stop being anxious, other people aren’t constantly thinking about you”
Also I get asked like “so what do you do at home?”
um… how should I answer this? “Oh I read online forums that has politically extreme memes?” (I mean that’s what half of Lemmy memes are…)
Or am I supposed to explain every youtube video I watched?
Idk how to even answer that…
My parents are paying the copays and I’m on parents insurance… honestly if I had to pay for this, I’d probably just sue them for funsies lmao… maybe if I win a medical malpractice lawsuit, the payout will cure my depression xD (okay probably not medical malpractice, but I felt like I was just wasting time so I really wanna just go sue them for fun lol)
I’m actually gonna die of “big sad” lmao
(My soul definitely died…)
LITERALLY listening to music feels more helpful than “therapy” or whatever… like 5th meet already… it feels equally weird in person and on video call… Like it just keeps getting more awkward each successive meet…
The “therapist” is white guy btw…
Dude was like “so do you feel like you have trouble acclimating to this country?”
And okay I know there’s no malicious intentions… but the way that was asked felt like what right winger would ask and then follow up with “so why not go back”…
Okay so maybe its just my paranoia… but that kinda triggered me… so the rest of the session… like 15 minutes of the remaining time I just felt like I had a PTSD event gone through my head…
It’s perfectly fine to ask for a different therapist if your needs aren’t being met. Not saying it isn’t awkward though. I’ve felt weird doing it but finding the right fit is better for everyone involved. Most importantly, it’s better for the patient (and no therapist worth the papers on their walls would disagree).
Everywhere is a little different but I’d look for a messaging feature on their website or an email address connected to their front desk / intake people. Might be as simple as “Hi, I’m [you], a patient of [whoever]. I’d like to switch to another therapist whose background and experiences are more similar to mine. [Brief summary like what you’ve said in other posts].”
Depending on how well-staffed they are, maybe they’ll have a handful of candidates in mind or could set you up with appointments to meet with other available therapists and see if you’re more comfortable with them. If they’re a smaller agency, they should at least be able to help navigate you through finding someone else who would be covered by the same insurance policy.
Best of luck to you whether you stick with the one you’ve got or try to find another. The process can be a pain but it often pays off in the end.