I fucking hate my existence, wtf is wrong with my brain, I can’t even feel happiness.
Does coffee make y’all happy?
I think it’s because I overdosed on SSRIs before (was feeling depressed so I chucked a whole bottle, wasn’t not suicidal, just wanted to feel better), and I think I messed up my brain, now I can’t even fucking feel anything. 😢
What do y’all do to feel better?
Drinks? Food? Drugs?
Welcome to the downward cycle of stimulants, depressants and anti-depressants.
Having been down that path of excess for a good number of years, my only path was straight down. From personal experience, my only path for normality was to stop all of that shit.
It sucks to quit and it sucks to learn how to do this life thing without chemical enhancement. It’s a whole bunch of suck all over the place. However, life eventually got easier to handle and I didn’t have the rollercoaster of drunkness or numbness going on any more.
It took a couple of years, but I would consider life fun again. It just took a while to learn what “fun” actually was for me.
It’s a medical requirement for me to ditch coffee now, unfortunately. However, now that I don’t have a hangover every morning, there is less of a need to drink coffee by the pot anymore, so there is that.