I’m really sorry everyone…this is all my own damn fault, I’m not denying that in the slightest.
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I was planning to die today. But I guess I’m not even capable of doing that.
This is all because I’m such an overdramatic, pathetic loser, an excuse for a human being. After an appointment with a new psychiatrist where her first question was “What is your deadname?” and after she told me I “started HRT late”, I just fell into a deeper spiral. Now there’s uncertainty if I’ll even be able to go to Thailand for SRS, which made me full on suicidal upon finding out, so I just kinda…broke.
And there’s the constant regret of not starting sooner, constant self-deprecating and loathing from feeling like I’ll never be a woman. Hating my face and body every single waking second.
I’m just…depressed and not doing well right now. And I’m making it everybody’s problem.
I’m sorry, but I guess I’m sticking around. I’m not dead just yet. I’m making a new account and starting over. But…at least, maybe you’ll believe me now that I’m not actually a good person?
I’m really sorry. I’m actually the worst. I know that.
Maybe I should have died. Maybe. But…instead I guess I’ll bother you all some more, again, from zero.
I’m sorry for being such an unimaginable fuckup…
Sincerely,
a very depressed trans girl,
Miisha
I did not realised you erased your real account. I don’t think anybody on blahaj hates you, and you are not a bother. You are giving activity to the community and without you and my precious little bitch, I would still try to repress everything. You are giving me hope with HRT even if I am older than you (your butt, omg) and that psychiatrist can eat all our shit combined. You are a sister and now I just want to offer you a big hug and sushi care with a hot beverage (chocolate, tea or whatever you want)
Mel, that’s so fucking kind of you 😭
Tysm sis ♥️. I actually love sushi!
The psychiatrist can go screw herself, really. She’s just…bad
Your…precious little bitch…do you mean Loutre? 👀
And what about my butt this time? 😭
Yes the cute little otter, mine
Didn’t you post a pic of your butt at some point ?
I see. I’ll leave you two to it then. Have fun girls 🩷
Oh I’ve posted many 😂
More are on the way 😆
Your butt is really pretty 👉👈 and I would like to have one as pretty as yours (for my little bitch).
Please get better 🫂
Aww thank you, that’s super sweet of you ❤️
I’ll get better. I will 🩷
Also…we may be rivals now 😂 /j
Maybe some day ^^ and if Loutre agrees when the time come
damn am i about to live the horniest dream life ever ? 🤤
it appears that you are one lucky girl :3
I’ll be here, ready. I’m not giving up! 😂