So as some of you probably seen, I finally started HRT and I am absolutely loving it. I am doing some higher doses for the beginning to get my levels up fast (5mg every 3 days for 3 injections and then 5mg every 7 days) and I am starting to feel the first emotional changes happening. I am feeling my inner girl without drugs for the first time in my life. I have never experienced this level of joy and happiness before. The level of Euphoria just looking at my beautiful nails gives me is insane. Im also currently at the edge of crying just from listening to some music. It feels absolutely fantastic. I did knew roughly what HRT would bring me emotionally, but not even in my wildest dreams could I have Imagined this level of Euphoria and happiness. Theres no realy way to put this into words without repeating myself a million times.
Anyway, I wish all of you girlies a wonderfull day and for all of my sisters out there struggling with dysphoria and waiting for HRT: Stay strong, it gets better 💖🫂
That’s amazing to read those transformation. I’m a cis male, but I’m curious about the experience of being a woman. Reading these stories reveal the difference of experience. Incredible that the hormones have so much power on our body and mind!
Do you think that the happiness and overall fell good and relief is from the molecule or from the gender dysphoria resolving?
Very happy to read your positive experiences and wish all of you girl the best!
The initial happiness (first two weeks) is mainly from euphoria - knowing it’ll improve from now on, is a huge thing.
I think for a cis guy a slightly stereotypic parallel might be if you felt somewhat blue during your teen life that you can’t quite grow a real moustache yet. Or not looking like one of those muscular guys. But knowing you eventually can likely grow the moustache/muscles - that gives you happiness as something to look forward to.
And for a cis gal, it might be the mental dissatisfaction with one’s own body when on period (not to confuse with the physical period symptoms). I feel that that might be a similar thing to dysphoria, though of a more temporary nature.
But, the thing is that for us trans people, this dysphoria/euphoria feels significantly stronger. That’s often because all the time that we didn’t realise or were unable to transition, the body development and expression feels like going the wrong way. Like an everyday “ugh” feeling, not quite happy. And so - to give a crude example - when we finally get that sweet hormone, it’s like the mental trance relief you feel from finally being able to pee after a long movie.
After those initial weeks, the euphoria mostly strengthened as just a general feeling of being able to feel like your happiness isn’t faked - more genuine.
Some take HRT (hormone replacement therapy, ie. getting onto estrogen/testosterone), others don’t. Some don’t have surgery and others don’t change literal clothes but others do. Any of that is fine. What makes someone transgender isn’t per se the dysphoria - it is the euphoria of expressing yourself as the different gender than the one assigned at birth. If you feel you’d be happier as another gender, then that would be it. The important thing is feeling happy and comfortable in your body. Whether that’s already the case or not yet. And I very much do feel so now!
But yeah, it varies. I think the feeling of euphoria vs dysphoria I described is more or less similar to what others have.
Oh and, thank you! Yeah, the hormones have a massive influence on your body. Non-queer guys and gals often think it only tweaks a little here and there, but they do so much more.
You having thicker hair? More strength, oily skin and grip? All testosterone, baby.
Softer skin? Boobs and hips, butt, rounder face? Harder to grasp jars? Period?[1] Estrogen.
[1] they’re basically like stomach nausea but feel to be down around where your pee bladder is. And also sometimes like a hand is grasping the area tighter (without feeling like you need to go). This is because periods affect not just the uterus, but also the area a little around. I myself sadly don’t have a uterus, though I do wish one even if that meant I’d bleed.