i want to try making this now. someone pls stop me

yeah somehow i don’t think my farm cats are going to agree to live inside. besides, they are free. it is not my place to force them inside.

i’ve tried so many different SSRIs and SNRIs

they have all had 0 useful effect on me. i’ve experienced side effects; digestion issues are the most common. i got uncontrollable leg shaking from one of them. i’ve never experienced any withdrawal symptoms coming off them, but for most people they are quite bad.

when i was a kid i was put on fluoxetine, and it was just as unhelpful. i wanted to stop and they wouldn’t let me, so a few months in, i quit them myself. some months later, my mother commented on how much better i seemed, how well the medication was working. i told her i hadn’t been taking it, and she didn’t believe me.

i’m now at a point where i absolutely refuse to touch them. the only thing that has actually had an impact on depression for me is ketamine.

hard agree i am actually dreading the time i will one day have to visit that hellhole again. hopefully no time soon

yes, that is v true and accurate

I lived in the UK for years. I went to oppose fascist marches many times. It was violent, like seriously fucking dangerous. I have been hurt. I hurt fash. I wore a fucking helmet and they threw rocks and bottles at us, my helmet was hit and fucking saved my life. After the marches the fash would break up into smaller groups to roam the streets and attack minorities. We did our best to protect people. I’m not saying this to look cool. Truth was I was scared out of my mind and I don’t know if I can ever go back to that kind of thing. I’m saying it because I absolutely believe that what is going on now must be like that, but so much worse. That place has only gotten worse in the 4 years since I left.

This has been brewing for literal decades at this point. There was a contingent of anti-europe people in the conservative party, way back before brexit. they were a small voice calling for it. but even then, more subtly, they had been putting their fingers into the culture and brewing anti-immigrant, anti-muslim, and anti-EU sentiment. When this group got loud enough to threaten the integrity of the conservative party, Pigfucker David Cameron called the brexit referendum, expecting it to fail, as a way to shut up the rightwing of the party. But instead that proved to be the catalyst for the fascist sentiments in the UK to be brought into the mainstream. This was when the tactics I associate with fascism truly started to feel like they were integrated into british society. Facts stopped mattering to people. Hate crime went up. Hell I got violently attacked.

As far as I know, there was some russian influence on Brexit. I don’t mean that russia caused this current situation - absolutely not, they only have the utter disaster of the past few decades to blame. They utterly failed to contain the rise of fascism. But I believe a nuanced and fact-based take is that Russia thought that Brexit would be politically useful to them, and used social media to support that. It probably would have happened anyway, the force from this didn’t come from russia but from some scheming british fascists.

This has been waiting to happen for fucking years.

I also wanna say that I’m not saying the EU is a good thing. It’s an inherently white supremacist institution “protecting” fortress europe against the desperate people at the borders. But the way british culture and politics work, and indeed this is true of a bunch of countries’ far right, opposing EU membership was a predominantly fascist position, and considering everything that has happened in that hellhole of a country since brexit, i do think it would be better if it had never left.

edit: thank u to those who have thanked me for what i used to do. but i was just doing my job as a human being, among many others, resisting people who have forgotten their humanity. maybe one day i will be able to, or have to, do it again.

Tesla “full self-crashing” mode

even taking their description at face value… what do they think poltics is, if preventing nuclear armaggedon isn’t political?

like. i’ve never had a mouse break, or had to pay for software updates. because a mouse doesn’t fucking need software updates.

stop acting like you invented something other than a new scheme for extracting money from your victims. assholes.

what the actual fuck???

yes grail switched, wasn’t banned. they “left on good terms” according to ada.

maybe ada should ban herself for driving away leftist trans ppl. i know me and my partner are far from the only ones.

i feel like this really showcases the problems inherent to liberalism, in terms of its inability to mount an adequate response to fascism. most actual leftists are immediately going to see the pronouns for what they are, and exclude that person for either being bad faith, or being reactionary. but libs just can’t seem to get their heads around the idea that yes, identity is important and should be supported, but not when it literally just hurts other people.

i’m perfectly capable of respecting someone i don’t understand, or disagree with. but i’m also capable of telling the difference between that and a reactionary and i have no interest in tolerating the latter.

i deleted my account there. not going to be getting involved anymore. i said what i came there to say and she deleted it, and the conversation is over.

oh great, now ada is telling me that my using “it/its” is equivalent to her enforcing the use of a troll’s pronouns when those pronouns are abusive. this is genuinely fucking offensive.

and accusing Anvil_Lavigne of being in bad faith for trying to insist she answer the question of whether or not fascist trans people are welcome on the instance. without actually answering the question, i might add.

she removed my response to her so posting it here for posterity:

forcing people to capitalise the pronoun “you” is absolutely nothing to do with gender. there is a huge difference between using a pronoun for someone that you feel could sound dehumanising (and for what it’s worth, i use it primarily because it was used as a slur towards me when i was younger) and requiring people to treat another person like a deity or a dom. it’s not a me problem, it’s abusive behaviour. i have absolutely no problem with neopronouns or xenogenders and have come out to support xenos many times. this is not that.

this is why you need politics in a community. i’m not talking about just political communities, but a political direction to your moderation. you’re suffering from a paradox of tolerance. you’re tolerating - and enforcing the toleration of - abusive behaviour because you lack the political instinct to see what is wrong with it. that makes this instance unsafe for trans people.

if someone comes on here and insists their pronouns are

are you going to tolerate that? this may be more subtle but it is ultimately no different. ultimately you’re right. i did find my experience here frustrating, and i also found it pretty frustrating watching my partner, who was more active here, suffer through all this bullshit. we’ve both left, as have a number of others, and i hope you’re happy that your decisions have forced out so many trans people from your supposedly safe community. i’m not expecting you to change your ways at this point, but seriously. this is fucked up, and your openness is being exploited. i feel bad for the people here.

it seems like ada has now banned mindtraveller and disavowed what they said. though grail is still there which honesty not cool with. its an improvement but i’m very much not happy with how this has been handled and i have no idea how much truth she is telling.

this is the text of my reply to her:

well thank you for clarifying and doing this much, i guess. but frankly this hasn’t been a safe place, none of this situation has been okay and i’m extremely not comfortable with grail’s behaviour as well. i’ve moved to hexbear despite my political differences with them and they’re honestly creating a far safer and more welcoming space for me as an anarchist and trans person. like seriously sort this place out if you want it to be safe for trans people. it currently is not.

eye roll at soulism, not u can’t u just believe urself into being transhuman in that case? no need to act at all it sounds like a self defeating ideology at its core

some gods… like Meeeeee

i’m perfectly comfortable with judging someone for wanting capitalised pronouns, especially when it goes beyond 3rd person. i cannot read it as anything other that someone trying to position themself as my dom. not saying it’s intended that way precisely but it’s very uncomfortable.

i attempted to read a medium post by grail on “anarcho-narcissism” and literally couldn’t finish it. was obliged to swear and close my laptop.

oh fuck it would be so funny/tragic if it were ziq like i’m fairly new to lemmy but i know about ziq from raddle

ah u know i wouldn’t have said shit about any of it if not for u