Where does “it used to work, but now it doesn’t, and I don’t understand how it could ever have worked” fit in?

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Uggh, those standards are so bad. I hope you are somewhat comfortable with your current setup.

Started by going through the official system, went diy after they went from treating me bad to horrible. And it honestly gave me a lot of confidence to not feel like I depend on those assholes anymore, even if I go back later. It still broke me a bit that I no longer trust doctors.

Maybe you can get a new assessment with a different doctor, if you still want that?

If you can afford it, it sounds like going to a therapist to unravel your feelings and possible trauma could be worth it. A good one will not tell you if you are trans, just help you along the way. If you can’t then some lgbt groups offer help to questioning people too.

You don’t have to rush it just because the vial might expire. Do it on your own time, experiment with other things (thought experiments, clothes…) if jumping to hormones is too much. Remember that it’s not a magic juice that instantly turns you girly, you can always stop if you feel weird on it.

Also, do you trust her this much? I’m a trans woman on DIY but I’m getting mine from a source I’ve seen other buy from and talk good about. You also need to spend some time researching doses and what blood tests to do first too.

I (mtf) bought a couple of summer dresses online which is a huge step because I haven’t allowed myself this kind of femininity yet, and now that they arrived I feel awesome instead of shameful!

Now I just need to figure out if I actually like them and how well they fit, I’m kinda funny sized in a way most fem clothes are not intended…

Here’s one without trackers that work in a browser https://ftvt.fiona.onl/

I helped a bit making the recording part 🤓

Soon at 4 years of hrt and starting to feel a bit hopeless regarding how little it can change on my body.

But I got myself some cool clothes and I’m pretty proud that I’ve been able to start voice training again after COVID ruined all the progress I made last time!

Do what you need to feel comfortable, but they look fine from here :3

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Unexpected e pro: way more confident

Unexpected e con: I lost 1 cm of height! I can no longer stare you down from 200 cm and 199 is just not the same :(

Might depend on where you are located, but Long Tall Sally is great for tall feminine clothes if you are in EU or UK.

Debian with kde, because it looked a bit like Windows.

Then slackware because it was supposedly a “simple” Linux distro. Apparently simple doesn’t mean simple to use for a newbie…

I thought r/suddenly_trans was a odd funny subreddit, and one day someone linked to egg_irl in the comments and guess that’s how I finally understood what being trans could mean - that was a very long weekend with a lot of thinking about all the signs that I didn’t see :D

Damn now you made me want to learn COBOL just for the meme…

Same, but I guess if you have a idea you want to build then using a language you are already comfortable with makes it a lot smoother than learning one that could be a better fit.

On one hand, I feel like I’m stuck. I’m not going to pass with only hrt and I’m not fully sure how to handle that.

On the other hand I just got myself a bunch of new feminine clothes and I can’t wait to get home and start using them, which will push how I express myself a lot while also being inside the range in which im comfortable with myself. So future goal will probably be about figuring out how to live as a trans passing woman rather than a cis passing woman :)

Maybe this? https://www.quora.com/Whats-the-logic-behind-Google-rejecting-Max-Howell-the-author-of-Homebrew-for-not-being-able-to-invert-a-binary-tree (his own version of what happened)

For sure, I don’t think I strictly belong to either of the stereotypes

People here are apparently either foss neckbeards or transfems/femboys, and they are all valid.