

What I’d say, is don’t worry and don’t get discouraged. I’m sure there must be photographic memory artists, but a question is what you want to achieve. You can still be a great artist without photographic memory, there were, are, and will be many. For sure not every artist has photographic memory. Also, with training you will start unblocking skills and talents in your brain that you didn’t expect before you might have. I couldn’t sing well, I was unable to match a tone, but I loved singing (uh) and started learning and gradually got to a level where I could lead a voice or sing it alone in a church choir and heard compliments from various singers. Now I’m learning to paint watercolors since 2 years, and unexpectedly to me my line drawing also starts improving. Often I am frustrated by my drawings or paintings but sometimes I am surprised how this or that one somehow looks so good! Sometimes feeling not under my control if ends up good or bad 🤷♂️ I went into it with the same attitude as you: let’s just keep practicing, with time it must start slowly improving. Well, it does! Annoyingly glacially slowly (at least in my perception), but definitely does. There will be always “better” artists; but you start discovering that you have a different voice, a different eye, and there are people who honestly resonate with your artworks, even if you feel yours are “worse”. Not everyone, but some do. And not every piece, but some. (I literally had a friend single out one drawing as something she really liked, completely unprompted, when before a “learned artist” grilled me over it so much that I lost desire to draw for half a year.) This also gives some validation, and helps persevere through those who complain or say nothing, or who say nice but only to be nice.









FWIW, from what I read, the difficulty in selfhosting email is mainly in how to not get your outgoing mail insta-plonked by increasingly fussy and moody spam filters. Shows up that a huge percentage of receivers are now on gmail, trailed by a few other major players like M$, and you’re on their whimsy, with no way to appeal plonk decisions (and challenging to even find out if they plonked or not). This was reported so even before the era of “AI”, I wouldn’t be surprised if it were even harder now.