Every therapist I’ve ever had has been dogshit
When I told my last therapist about my anxiety she was like “oh why don’t you try aroma therapy to calm you down?” MOTHERFUCKER I need assistance leaving my own apartment to go grocery shopping I get so anxious, aroma therapy isn’t going to do jack shit
And yeah basically everyone I’ve ever had has been really disinterested. My last one even ended a session 15 mins early seemingly cause she got bored
My physiologist is okay cause she just gives me meds and we talk like once a month, she still misgenders me and shit so still trash but better than any therapist
Mental health services are a joke in the US
everyone already could do art, just pick a up a pen and draw. art is one of the cheapest and most accessible hobbies out there, literally all you need is paper and a pencil
mogs me
I have nothing else to really do with my day besides doom scroll, especially with classes ending
not passing is a doom state for me, other people can be happy without that but for me I cannot envision myself being happy while not passing
I’m going to hate myself either way it’s nice to find relatable people
it’s nice to have a non-hugbox trans community though
was having a good morning and day, actually being productive
feeling somewhat good for the first time in weeks
go on /tttt/ anyways and ruin my mood
why am i like this
Okay I talked to the powers that be about failing a class and there is nothing i can do about it now but next semester I can retake it can replace the grade on my transcript so it will only hurt me temporarily
not the best outcome cause it’ll still suck for the next six months but it’s better than nothing
They’re not in the ground anymore there up here
the past week is literally the worst week of the entire year for my brain to stop working and of course that’s exactly when that happens
i might fail a class if I don’t get my shit together in like 72 hours but I can barely do anything at the moment i think it’s too late to withdraw and get a W
the number is just a representation of the weight and that is very real and can hurt me
I’ve got a shitload of fat deposited from before hrt fat redistribution so it makes me feel like absolute shit
no I am not able to
A big part of it is wanting to lose weight quickly but also I’ve been in a horrible headspace recently and that’s about all that I can force myself to eat, if I eat more than that I feel sick
that’s true but it still is ruining my morning nontheless
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK how did I GAIN weight between yesterday and today I only had 800 calories and YES I know about liquid calories I had no tea, coffee, soda, energy drinks, alcohol, or any other fluid other than water. This is so goddamn FRUSTRATING how how HOW
I know home scales are bullshit and are inaccurate and there’s natural variation in weight and all that shit and it’s probably just those things but still it is EXTRAORDINARY frustrating
First day in the past week that it has actually gone up instead of down
All of the cards in Wingspan have amazing art but I think this one is my favorite