i recorded an audio log for my diary while watching a video i just posted here (pausing it to collect my thoughts for my diary) and there i snowballed in a very vulnerable tirade that got to the root of why i want my addiction: to hide thoughts that bear down on me, especially since i’m lonely and hold no real social roots anymore. since i don’t wanna sit around and feel bad i continue a screen & internet addiction to cope. so this gave me some direction: what to use to cope instead? is there a way for me to talk to others about what i’m burdened by- before going out to try to meet people again? that would undo the need that addiction fills for me. two concrete goals.