Profound discomfort and repulsion at my own body, particularly the things testosterone changed about my body. Extreme distress as I went through puberty, especially with the deepening of my voice and the growth of facial hair. Deep envy of bodies that did not go through testosterone exposure like mine did. Frustration at how people perceived me, spoke to me and treated me. Depression about how far away I seemed to be from who I wanted to be. Anxiety about my presentation. A complete lack of being able to see a future for myself. I could never see myself aging as a man.

There’s so many other things. But those are the major points. Nearly all of those feelings I am recollecting. I am very happy with my body and my presentation and how others see me now. My voice remains a source of dysphoria for me but not enough to outweigh the euphoria I feel being me.