I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it’s different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it’s a very nice thing to do, I’ve never fucked a butt before, I’ve always fucked pussies.
and I’m a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn’t attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it’s not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.
and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don’t know why.
I don’t know how to answer you, maybe you’re right, all I know is that I feel safe fucking him and I like fucking him but I wouldn’t fuck other guys because I don’t like guys, I don’t feel anything for other men. and I take it as recreation, something fun with my friend with whom I enjoy it and on top of that I earn money, but here people think that what I do is gay and I know that fucking another guy is a gay act but I don’t consider myself gay just to fuck him, because I would never fuck another man. maybe I’m 99% straight and 1% gay, and it’s not fear, I truly believe it.