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The original was posted on /r/cfs by /u/microwavedwood on 2024-09-20 16:07:15+00:00.

I don’t know, this kind of thing really hurts. I haven’t seen any of my friends since February. My symptoms aren’t great since then and the few times I have tried to plan something I’ve just had to cancel it.

I knew this would be inevitable. But I didn’t realise it would hurt this much.

Me/cfs has resulted in my mental health getting pretty bad again. And when that happens I self isolate. So I don’t text much. And I know that’s my fault 100%, I don’t want to claim to be the victim or anything like that. I know this is my fault for not being able to message much or meet up with people.

I hate this illness. I hate the loneliness, I hate the fear, I hate my body so much for giving up on me. I used to have dreams and wishes. They’ve all been crushed. And I can’t even be close to my friends anymore because of it. It’s awful. The future seems so dull I dare not even think of it.

Sorry for the ramble, just feeling upset right now